Breathe, and start again.

Life has been put back into perspective. Rapidly. Yep, it's all back to fairies and rainbows and all that mushy goodness. Sort of. Sort of in that my goals are going to be in full force, the whole living well, eating well, loving well and chasing dreams.

Sometimes you need to feel like rubbish and give up for a few days before you can tackle everything head on. I like setting goals to achieve and I don't intend to give up on them even if it takes me a long time to achieve them. It's more a life style change than a passing fad. I want to be better in every way, and I am going to be.

'My tastes are simple: I am easily satisfied with the best.' - Winston Churchill

Quil xo

Get up and go got up and left.

Only a short one because I'm at a loss of things to say and do.

Once again I find myself at a stand still, where I have no job and seem incapable of writing anything. Writers block is a bitch, as is trying to get a job (that you are actually able to do) in this day and age. I have never wished for a lottery win quite so much. But I refuse to be downhearted about it. Yes, everything's not quite going to plan right now, but it will. I don't want to give up, I want to earn and write and have an amazing time doing it.

My get up and go seems to have left me for now, but I'm sure it will come back. It will.

Quil xo

Difficult times.

Turns out that I have pretty high standards for human beings, and that there are just some things that are not worth the money. After a week of being abused by random strangers at my job (the joys of fundraising) I quit. I am not cut out for it, and I will not be treated that way for any amount of money. It's a shame because I didn't hate the job and my team was so so lovely. 

Brushing off such rudeness is not my forte, I can't just let it go when my only reaction to be spoken to like crap is to knock someone's teeth out. OH WELL. Onward and upward from here, looking for a job where I don't have to pretend to be a Tigger on speed. I'm naturally happy and upbeat with people but not if they are rude.

I'm hoping for a job within the book world; I really don't mind where, that is how much I love books.

Until tomorrow, 

Quil xo

Working girl.

Officially employed, officially managed one day of work and getting ready to head out again today.

Wow. I think my legs are dead. Walking around for six hours is fine at the time, but then you stop...and your body realizes it cannot cope with such exercise after living a pretty lazy life. My body hurts so much today, but that's okay because it will get easier, just have to break myself back into activity. 

Work, however, is amazing. Pretty terrifying, as I'm fundraising door to door, but nearly everyone has been lovely so far. It's not what I want to do forever but everyone I work with is lovely and the pay and hours are just right for me. Loving it.

Quil xo

I am the music maker.

Despite the fact that I am bunged up with allergies (is it even pollen season anymore or am I allergic to something?!) I'm feeling good. When I finished university the world seemed terrifying, not because I was scared of going out and working, but because it seemed impossible that I would get a job and I didn't have any idea what I wanted to do. 

Things have changed now. I start training tomorrow, for a brilliant rewarding job that allows me to write on the side. Leaving university is no only tragic because I enjoyed it so much and miss all my friends that live far away. Working life has finally fallen into place and I don't feel like I have no idea what I'm going to do anymore, it's a truly liberating feeling, and I feel like I could burst.

I am glowing with happiness and good feelings; I know I can do anything.

'Trust your heart if the seas catch fire, live by love though the stars walk backwards.' E. E. Cummings

Quil xo

And so it goes...

I'm now employed. I'm quite amazed, and amazingly grateful, that I got the job. All in the space of three days. It's crazy how the world works sometimes. Not just that, but I'm working for a charity that is close to my heart, rewarding? Just a tad.

There's nothing quite like the liberating feeling of knowing you can make your own money, and luckily for me my parents are extremely generous, supportive and not going to rob me blind with rent. Feeling very lucky and very happy.

'All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.' - St. Francis of Assisi

Quil xo

The beginning.

September 1st. 

It's nice how my plan to take charge of my life has coincided with the beginning of a month, I'm one of those people who find it easier to start things at the beginning of the week, month or year. It just makes more sense - yeah, I'm pretty OCD.

I'm back at SW after my holiday and ready to lose weight and get fit. I have a job interview tomorrow and if I am successful I start training on Monday. It's not my ideal job but it's work and as I don't really want to do anything but write, any day job will do. Life is good. It's slow, but steady, right now and that's okay with me.

Things are set in motion and can surely only carry on from here, and if not? Well, I'm not going to worry. I'm a firm believer in 'everything will be okay because I say so', and I say so.

Quil xo