Well, well, well...

I'm not very good at this blogging business am I?! But, on the plus side of this, I have been writing as if my life depends on it. I've been sorting out all my various story pieces and getting everything organised and on top of that have managed to lose 4 pounds! Slow going, but it's definitely going.

I'm trying to embrace a slower pace of life right now. The economy is pretty rubbish and finding a job is just about impossible for me right now; I either don't have the experience or am too qualified. Someone give a girl a break? I've been told I am a self employed writer, not unemployed (well that's all well and good but where's the money from that, eh?). Guess I'll have to try embrace that as well. I find it hard to sit in my room doing my writing and feel like I'm actually doing something...but, as dear old mum said, it's my destiny. 

Who am I to doubt mum? Especially when she doesn't mollycoddle and make believe. If I was stupid, she'd let me know, and I'm very grateful for that. Don't worry mama, I'll make it someday. 

Until next time!

Quil xo

False start.

I meant to post before today, truly, but after an amazing new year (I'm talking white Russians, sex stories, friends falling head over arse and nearly killing myself falling off a sofa to Auld Lang Syne amazing), I managed to catch a horrible stomach bug - it wasn't pretty and I won't delight anyone reading with details. I think I'm riding it out now and finally starting to feel normal after three days in bed, so after a false start 2012 can truly start with a bang. Bigger and better things. Boom, you know?

I will be back soon with a proper post, rather than empty promises of such. My next post will begin my 2012 journey properly and I hope that I inspire myself, and maybe even someone else, during my ramblings to just get out there and live. 

I hope anyone reading had an amazing new year, wishing the world the best for this year!

Quil xo

Resolutions.

It's very nearly a new year, and I'm feeling sickeningly positive about it. I've felt this way at the end of the year for the past couple of years, but have never felt the overwhelming need that I do now for change. Change in body and mind. Changes that won't necessarily be huge and earth shattering, but important to me regardless.

A new day, a new week, a new month, a new year. The biggest and best excuse to start it all again; any goals you didn't get to achieve, well girl, now is your chance. Sunday 1st January. It's going to be one hell of a ride and I'm full of excitement. I still don't have a job, I'm still stuck with student loan debt. But you know what? I don't mind. I'm no longer scared, not with my family and friends beside me and a very confident head on my shoulders. 

Here's to the New Year, I'll see you there! 

Quil xo

Don't let yesterday use up too much of today.

I've been an absent blogger. It's not something I'm proud of, though it may seem trivial in the grand scheme of things. It's a quality I've always disliked in myself: being able to give up so easily. I'm either crazy determined or not at all, with everything.

So, that being said...my new years resolution this year, first and foremost, is to lose weight and lead a healthier life. I still want to fulfill all my goals and life life to the fullest, but I know that for my long term health and happiness this is the first thing I need to address. I'm overweight. I accept this, embrace it even; I just love food, simple as. I'm very tall (6ft) and very curvy. Boobs, hips, bum, I have them in spades so I carry my extra baggage well. I want this to change though, I want to lose weight and eat healthier, move more. I need to lose roughly five stone, and I intend to blog my progress. I'd like to say weekly, but I know my own limitations and other things will most likely get in the way. I will try for monthly updates. That I should be able to manage. 

Life is fleeting, and I intend to live it and enjoy it fully. My goals and dreams may seem small or simple, perhaps huge and unattainable, but they are my goals none the less and I want 2012 to the year that I truly 100% try to attain them. 

For now I'll leave you with this.

'Just living is not enough. One must have sunshine, freedom, and a little flower.' - Hans Christian Anderson.


'We seem to be going through a period of nostalgia, and everyone seems to think yesterday was better than today. I don't think it was, and I would advise you not to wait ten years before admitting that today was great. If you're hung up on nostalgia, pretend today is yesterday and just go out and have one hell of a time.' - Art Buchwald. 

Life is too important and too precious to waste.

Quil xo

Out of the rut.

I'M BAAAAACK!

Hello to anyone reading :) it's been a couple of months since I've made an appearance, life and such has been getting in the way as it does.

I probably won't be on properly until Christmas or the New Year, but I promise I will be back and sharing my journey into living in the moment and making the most of your life.

Quil xo

Awakening.

To anyone reading, hello!

I knew I would make it out of my rut...and I have, and this time I truly intend to stay out of it. I have finally managed to get my head around everything - what I want to achieve and how to achieve it. I can now see how my goals will be achieved and I am determined to achieve them. Sometimes life gets you down and it can be hard to find the gusto to just get up and get on with it. I have found that gusto. I'm not entirely sure what has kick started it, but I'm grateful nonetheless.

More to come...

'Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.' - Mark Twain

Until next time, 

Quil xo 

Sit back, and have a rethink.

Sometimes even the best intentions yield no results. Sadly, I've got no results. I seem to be in a serious rut in my life. I think it's finishing university and being unemployed, with no real idea what I want to do other than write. The one place I have an active interest in working doesn't seem to want to employ me, and I discovered the hard way that I'm not cut out for fundraising.

Stuck. In. A. Rut. Sigh.

I need to pull myself out of this darkness; it's very unsettling when I feel past issues rising to the surface again, I think my battle with depression will be something I have to fight throughout my life. There always seems to be something else to think about to stress me out or make me worry...I need to learn how to rid myself of the anxiety and panic and just relax. Just breathe.

That's all for now. Hopefully my next post will be complete with fairies, rainbows and unicorns. I hope so anyway. 

Quil xo